Feel So stress free really happy to get this off my chest!

Alright! so when i woke up today GOD DAM MAD TRIED AREADY?!?! LMFAOO.So then i went to Handball School and i gotta say mike got better. played a left game against ANNIE i won but i know she won lol. then play left game against solo nigga killed me 15-2? then he gaved up -.- played doubles nigga solo gaved up. THEN went chilling with lay wah!!! omg we walked od.. was pretty fun ate some viet food!!! dumb good and i talked alot lmfao telling her whats happening in my life so far it was really good becasue i i told her how i felt and what i wanna do before summer ends ;D so glad that i have someone like this in my life ^_^ i would talk to conroy but this nigga end up laughing or calling me gay and stuff lmfao but its all good! i was having a really good time lol but i only get to see her once every few weeks.. but thats what gets me happy! we both always have some cool stuff to take about and we just laugh like dumbass LOL any way we talked about girls and stuff LMFAOOO -.-'' i hate it when she always bring up this girl that in my past i always tell her i was young and didnt know how to be in a relationship lol but now i keep telling her that iam more mature and understand what goes around in relationship and life ^_^. So some reason my chest is mad big i didnt even notice until lay wah was like why your chest so big? LMFAO iam like i work my chest alot? LOL but then she was like your belly is mad big -.- NOW IAM HYPE SHE MADE ME WANNA WORK OUT EVEN MORE!!! so iam stop working on my chest and just work on losing fat lol get skinner and develop more muscles!!!


SUMMER GOALS!

Volunteer at OCM
Meet People at ocm lol
GET BETTER AT HANDBALL
Get in shape maybe trying drop 10 pounds LMFAO
SHOP TILL I DROP
FIND A JOB WHEN SCHOOL STARTS!

HAPPY!!

Alright! i been in a stressful mood lately but not i feel relaxed, laid back, and HAPPY i don't know why but i guess today was a easy and fast day of lifeguard? WHY DO I KEEP FORGETTING THIS LIFEGUARD BAG? LMFAOO i was suppose to carry it for this week but i keep forgetting to bring it in and outside of the pool so now i gotta carry it for the next 2 weeks :( THE MOST FUCKED UP PART was the other lifeguards don't even tell me they just say U TIGHT TO me every time they pass by me LIKE THIS NIGGA CONROY but this kind of stuff don't get me piss off it takes a mad long time just to piss me off or me yelling LMFAOOO. OK i been in a good mood because i been sleeping, relaxing and just have time to myself other then having family or friends bothering u or talking to u. like was there a time where u want to be with yourself? to think about deep stuff that matters, relax, maybe laugh or cry a little about times where u wish things could be different?!. so for the past few days i been going to this park where i was little with my mom and 2 brothers. i just sit in the park and just listen to music think walk around thinking about my life of what happen so far, what i want in the future, what i want to change lol...<--- that shiet sounds mad gay right? lmfao but there's a time where u gonna realize that stuff like this matter. ANYWAY IAM BACK FEELING BETTER. hyped up excited because iam thinking about volunteering at OCM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_^ Fish told me that its a good place to meet ppl and his friends go there!!!! OMFG and its mad close to my home! its the summer so i gotta do something that will effect my future in a good way :D

Theres still some stuff that bothers me alot.. that gets me in a angry or depress mood when i think about it but still iam solve it when it happens or not :D but for now iam good ready to go! Feet heal up better! not that sore anymore but still went to the gym -.- someone slap me!!! LMFAOO nah iam good ready to go! LETS GOOOOO!



Kind of wanting to see this person...Tony Lam<3 LMFAOOOOOOOO NAH JKJK

ANNIE!!! ^_^

Fucking hate myself

i just hate myself so much for the past few days i feel like i been drowning in alot of stress and been feeling depressed alot... i feel this massive pressure coming out of no where pushing me down for some reason. i just havent been me lately. AHHHHHHHH just fucking hate myself!.All i been doing is falling a sleep and trying to wake up and feel better but it ends up always me feeling bad about myself. i really cant take this shiet no more..

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FAMILY PARTY WAS AWESOME!! saw my cousins cousins from china niggas had me laughing od hard becasue there this kid that is 12 years old and he is the same height as my baby cousin which is like 7 LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO took a big ass nap at my grandmas becasue my feet and body was still hurting :( shiet still hurt after i woke up.


i was feeling mad depressed today for some reason i think because i been thinking about to much stuff lately. most of it is about this person but ehh i try not to lol so i just chilled with my brothers

Extreme Tried.. ANNIE! iam Sorry ;(

HOLYSHIET played Hb none stop for like 4 hours... omfg my vans sucks and solos shoe lol shiet made my feet bleed when i got home. FINALLY ME AND MICHEAL LOST 1 GAME LOL dam i was trying to be undefeated but lose we ere close but its alright its a good way to learn :D. my feet was bleeding like shiet :( and i promise ANNIE that i was gonna job BUT IAM SORRY i was in a lot of pain... iam make it up to you ^_^

I been thinking if i made this choice its gonna effect everyone else and this bad feeling that keeps on coming back everything i think about it..my brain keep on telling me its a bad idea and dont do it.. i also made a promise to myself that i wouldn't do something like this and i try not to. i wish i have no brian wanna be a ZOMBIE! lmfao

Annie your blog made me really sad.. but your more upset then me but its ok!!! u dont need a rose to know that I LOVE YOU ^_^ just keep your smile up annie like this :D

WORD TO MY MOTHER! working at bgr tomr!!!

BGR is a horrible place to work at -.- but its all good getting payed so i dont really care plus all lifeguards are working there so i feel more relaxed ^_^

LIFEGUARD RACE!...came in 3rd :(

Haven t been blogging for a while lol so let me start out by the lifeguard race we had i came in 3rd!!!! U FOR REAL?! iam ashame but it wasnt that fair becasue the guy that i wanted to race for a long time becasue hes the best swimmer out of the lifeguards but he HAD GOGGLES -.-' so i was swiming opening my eye and shiet i saw him in front but it was hard to see so i didnt know but i was like i gotta speed up and i did.. but at the end i cam in 3rd or 2? not sure becasue ppl said u chould had beat him if u didnt move sideways LMFAO i chouldnt see so dont blame me :( so i was talking to conroy the whole day and i was going deep REAL SHIET LMFAO but chills this nigga aint a person i would want to talk to about real stuff. nigga always be laughing and making fun of me LOL. OKKKK REAL TALK RIGHT NOW... everytime i go to the gym and workout swim or run i look at the mirror and it gets me dumb angry becasue i see myself as a weak person so everytime i get angry i would keep pushing myself working out.. when i rest i always think about how my life will be like or how its gonna be fucked up if i dont start changing how iam living now.. i think about life friends and other shiet.. i gotta say it really gets me in a bad mood when i think deep about stuff becasue i guess iam afarid????? of the results if i decide to start changing or making choices that would lead to something i wont like lol SO basically i always build up this anger in me at gym and i always try to work it out as hard as i can no homo LMFAO

STEP YOUR GAME UP!<3 the phase i like to use when i go WORKOUT!!!!


ROGER THAT

LIFEGUARD OMG....

shiet is getting annoying lol

LIFEGUARD OMG....

shiet is getting annoying lol

LAY WAH MAGIC SHADES VIETFOOD!!!

I woke up early today just to go pick her up from coney island. Me and her then took the train back to coney island and we started talking in the trian about mad shiet omfg we were talkng nonstop the whole day it was really fun!. we went to buy bubbletea..shiet was nasty lmfao i was choking on the black shiet thats why i hate drinking bubbletea it taste like shiet.Anyway we started to walk to soho to shop omfg had my shades on and a outfit that matches it so we were walking on talking and going in stores lol. so as we started walking up lay wah comes out and yell at me lmfao saying that everyone one was looking at me? LMFAO i was laughing so hard but i didnt believe her..but it was ture! lmfaooooo i didnt notice but she was like look at ppl that are passing by u and i was looking and they were looking back.I think it was becasue of the sunglasses lmfao. We started to walk down from urbanoutfitters. we walked in to american eagle and i tried in a shorts i liked the blue ones but they didnt have a different size because it was big.. i thought i chould fit it but it was big i was like DAMM i lost a Pants size??. lol so i brought the shorts as we were leaving there WAS THIS CUTE ASS GIRL THAT CAME IN and she knows lay wah and they were talking a lil bit like oo i miss u and that blah blah i swear the god she was talkng to lay wah and looking at me!!! as we left lay wah was like omg did u know she was looking at u i was like YEAH i got excited!!! i am yoo shes cute though lol then we left and went to eat some viet food! shiet was good after that i went home and she went home ^_^ MY SHADES ARE SO LUCKY!!! i think it was the shades that cause ppl to look at me and her lmfaoo

143! Workout!

I been thinking a lot lately.. about to give up handball for the summer and go gym full time on weekends and after work but i might just play handball at the weekend but i want to go to the gym like 7 times a week lol. i been over exercising myself lately..but i been getting in shape now. i been cuting out fatty food and suger stuff like candy and shiet, so mostly i been eating at home and drinking water or saltz water<3 SHIET IS GOOD don't know why ppl hating on it lmfao. So i been taking my workout serious because i want to get skinner or more build. but lately my arms and chest are getting bigger because i mostly work out on those main parts. i havent been swiming but iam start tomr. Soooo far my chest and arms are getting build and i had been working on abs and it starting to show but theres alot more work i need to do. MY upper half of the build is getting stronger but the bottom half is mad weak and skinny so iam try work out on the whole body everytime i go to the gym after work maybe spend lke 2-4 hours in the gym doing non stop working out ^_^

BAY 8TH HELEN is a animal!

okk so today i woke u early and went to bay8th and dennis, alex,annie, philp, and helen were aready there GOD DAM that was fast!. there was also mad ppl!!!! at bay 8th aready. i was happy becasue it gave me the chance to play better ppl. so philp and alex got a court in the middle and we just chill in the side. i was SO TIGHT becasue though out the day they were just playing the same ppl in seward -.- i told them to play new ppl. so me and alex played on the front courts and we won. we lost to gar jin and mike.After that i was chilling with annie<3 this nigga keep hitting me for no reason lmfao and she keeps poking me!. then few hours later we left and went to 7 11 dennis drived us there and then we went to mcDs to get some food. so then we started to go back to ct and i sat next to helen in the car, she saw this bug thing and started to FREAK out omfg she was elbowing me in my left chest.. it really hurts. though out the whole trip back to ct she kept hitting me, slapping my leg, and pulling my leg hair. FINALLY she went to sleep LOL. so we went back to seward chill for a while then went and pick up simon and went home.
Roger That!