i wish!

NEED TO GO BACK TO SWIMMING.. maybe it can help me relax and so i can just swim away all the bullshiet i put up though this few months.

ahhh so many senior stuff to do this coming few months omg a mountain of paper work, collage work, work, and my life :T. i dont really feel stress out because nothing is really holding me down. did almost everything i gotta do. the thing that really stress me out is my personal life.

i keep stressing out about the future. where i wanna be and what i wanna do. but it seems that my own family have no faith in what i wanna do. but it doesn't mean im stop doing what i wanna do. the thing about this is how my aunts trying to control every single lil thing in my life trying to force me to do something i kind of dont wanna do. they ask me like what i wanna do but they just laugh thinking its funny.. but look at your husband working at a post office -.- my ass will make more then him if i continue lifeguard so she shouldn't be coming at me.They always try control my life wanting me to do what they want me to do. whats the point of living my life if i cant do what i want? why dont i just die then. but u know what FUCK THEM im doing what i want. Then i was just talking about tattoos where i want to get it and when. my aunt comes out of no where and said u getting it when your 24 and out of collage LMFAOOO FUCK U im getting it first year in collage dont care if my family yell at me. They act like i have no mine of my own.. but o well i guess when im out of ny for collage IF I CAN MAKE IT TO A SUNY im be different :).

AHHHHHH i wanna do so much stuff while im still young and i wanna travel around the world with my friends ^_^